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Elder Land has known for a long time that he liked men, but like a devout Mormon boy, he’s never acted on it. But one day a very persuasive and friendly mission president managed to get him to admit his secret feelings. “Struggling with same-sex attraction” was how they agreed to describe it.

Now that he’s on his mission, he’s trying hard to not give in to temptation and keep his thoughts righteous and pure. But being surrounded by handsome older men has always been his weakness, and several of the priesthood leaders have caught his attention. And his struggle is getting harder day by day.

CHAPTER 1

Elder Land   SAME-SEX ATTRACTION

Ever since Elder Land left home and arrived in the MTC, he’d been constantly surrounded by dozens of young men like him. [More]

CHAPTER 2

Elder Land   INTERVIEW

Elder Land sat nervously in the big, white room. He leg shook up and down as his palms got sweaty and hot. [More]

CHAPTER 3

Elder Land   THE CALLING

Elder Land stared up at his ceiling all night. His companion was fast asleep, long mellowed by the mundanity of their day. [More]

CHAPTER 4

Elder Land   INITIATION

Elder Land’s skin tingled as Bishop Gibson moved around him. It was an unusual sensation, like goosebumps, but better.  [More]

CHAPTER 5

Elder Land   DISCIPLINARY ACTION

Elder Land felt like he was in some sort of dream. The idea that he had Bishop Gibson inside him was enough to make him [More]

CHAPTER 6

Elder Land   The Second Anointing

Elder Land could hardly sit right for days. Even his companion began to notice the unusual hesitance whenever they’d [More]

CHAPTER 7

Elder Land   Atonement

The first two pegs were easy. Well, easier. Elder Land had been playing with his hole for years and knew he could take [More]

CHAPTER 8

Elder Land   THE ENDOWMENT

The Veil is a true test of obedience. The missionaries brought before it cannot see the man that stands behind. In this way,  [More]

CHAPTER 9

Elder Land   THE COVENANT

Despite everything he had experienced so far in his induction, Elder Land was still hopelessly devoted to his fantasies  [More]

CHAPTER 10

Elder Land   ORDINATION

Elder Land was excited for his meeting with President Faust. He knew he was set to be ordained into the higher priesthood [More]

CHAPTER 11

Elder Land   THE SACRAMENT

Elder Land liked being a member of the Order. He liked being a part of something the other missionaries were not. It was a [More]

CHAPTER 12

Elder Land   TEMPLE SHOWER

Elder Land has been a model missionary for the Order. He’s done all that they’ve asked for and never once turned away or [More]